journal entry May 16, 2018
Ephesians 5:8 For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light.
Growing up in church I’ve heard all too often “we are the light in the dark world”. Now that I am an adult and I live outside my parents Christian house, made my own unbeliever friends, have come inside and outside of the church circles, In my confused mind I observe both believers and unbelievers. Sometimes I cannot tell the difference between the two except one group of people are more cleaner cut and live much safer lives than the other. Are we really all that different?
How can our lives as Christians be radically different than others?
If Christ wants us to die to self/pick up the cross/empty ourselves, why is nobody doing that? Why aren't Christians a living sacrifice?
Are we not sacrificing enough? Am I not seeing it? Should I see it? If I don’t see it how can unbelievers see it?
Say we have two people; an unbeliever and a believer.
Both live sacrificially. Both take time to feed the needy/poor/the unloved and both stop what they are doing to care for their family/sick child. Both give of their incomes to charities.
One is doing it out of worship to the Lord. The other is doing it because it’s a humanitarian cause. (Or they’re just a nice person)
Both have made sacrifices in their lives.
What sets them apart from each other?
Of course God knows and maybe other Christians can see it. It’s really inside the heart. But what I’m asking is how can other unbelievers see these two people and see a radical life for Christ if both people on the outside look the same?
What happens when sacrifice looks the same? What happens then?
I admire the Holy Spirit. I have a deep respect for the living God as my Heavenly Father. I communicate daily with my master the good shepherd. How can unbelievers see that without stepping into my own personal prayer closet?
How can others see Christ in me and say “Hey she’s got something that is different, She is different, I want that.”?
Is it wrong for me to desire unbelievers to want what I have? I feel their eyes watching my every step and I want to point them to Christ but I don’t know how. If I’m not to worry about these things then why am I here?
How can they see Christ in my life?
Fruits of the spirit
Galatians 5:22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace,forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,23 gentleness and self-control.
I have a friend who is kind, patient, loving and gives a lot of herself. She cares for the needy in her spare time. She’s always volunteering at shelters. She is a mother that is gentle, patient and nurturing to her children. She is also an unbeliever.
If I’m to show her Christ in my life, how could she look at my life and see something she doesn’t have.
Galatians chapter 5 goes on to say,
24 Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires.
Could they really tell? Could unbelievers really see someone who has crucified their fleshly desires and want that for their own selves?
I am surrounded by unbelievers, witches, humanitarians, the lost, more than ever! My heart breaks for these people. And I know Christ has already brought salvation all they have to do is hear it and believe and it’s not up to me to save them all. Christ has already done it all. But my heart is heavy for all these people. I feel like they are all watching me. We are living side by side together. They see me. I say I am a Christian. What do they see? Do I have anything that they want? Do I live any differently than they do?